Last week I posted about "no bad news yet." Well, the bad news came today. Here's the story. Jeff and I found a house. We were nervous to say too much about it because we weren't sure if it was even a reality. We weren't sure about financing on top of the condo. We weren't sure about whether we'd like the house. We weren't sure about adjusting our budget. So, we looked at it. We really like it. We had one concern about an older boiler, but we figured that houses have stuff. And this was the only "flaw" we could see with this one. It was well maintained, priced to sell, and it is in the elementary school district we want, and was only three houses down from our daycare provider. Oh. And a yard. Heaven, right? We were ready to put in an offer, today. Our realtor called the listing realtor. Only to find out...someone else had put an offer in, and it had been countered, and then accepted. Inspections are tomorrow. So much for that, right. Onward and upward? Not so easy. I guess I didnt' realize how much my heart was in this. I've kind of been a mess tonight. On an intellectual level, I completely acknowledge and accept that this might not be the one for us, right now. But on an emotional level, I'm devastated. It feels like we're going to be stuck in the condo forever. Of course, then I quickly remind myself, I'm just being emotional. But honestly, the thing I am thankful for right now, is the fact that even when my pendulum swings towards the emotional reaction, I know that even though I cannot see it right now, there's a bigger and better plan for us, and that helps swing me back towards my intellectual state. It's going to take me some time to refocus here, but I am thankful for a God that won't give up on me.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29v11
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